'Rejection Role' Soilwork.

I'm the result of an ageless redemption
a body with a heartless convention
a face with a smile that's been shut down for years
facing the facts of my generation...cause
I'm a sinner, a winner, my blood is getting thinner
I might as well get another life cause I've been there
I know what's been said and I know what's been done
don't you tell me I'm the only one, cause I...

[Chorus:]
I will be there looking for something
Coming straight out of nothing, just killing time
Facing those walls so black, so vile
I really am waiting for nothing
Coming straight out of something, just killing time
Facing those walls so black, so vile

Now put your trust in a solid machine
Filled with words that have never been seen
A plague to insatiable souls left to die
Charged with mankind's raw energy
I rumble, I stumble
My memory starts to crumble
I can't refuse what's haunting my dreams
Have I stumbled?
On my way to a created perfection
I penetrate the gates of rejection

I will be there looking for something
Coming straight out of nothing, just killing time
Facing those walls so black, so vile
I really am waiting for nothing
Coming straight out of something, just killing time
Facing those walls so black, so vile

There's no determination, echoes of a failed gallery
There's yet extermination, inside us all screaming

I will be there looking for something
Coming straight out of nothing, just killing time
Facing those walls so black, so vile
I really am waiting for nothing
Coming straight out of something, just killing time
Facing those words so black, so vile

I had one of those weird moments on Sunday night- where you just hear something that makes you think, in a reflective manner. It was during 'Barton Fink', and the woman, after hearing what troubled the main character, said the line 'Everyone needs to be understood...even you.' For some reason this grabbed something in my head. I didn't sleep well that night, as I tried to figure out what my brain was telling me. Hmmm.

To see you when I wake up
is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
is a three-fold, utopian dream.
You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said,
I miss you.
I see your picture, I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days, but already I'm wasting away.
I know I'll see you again
whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care
and I miss you.

'I miss you' - Incubus

The Doctors have just found a lump in my sister's leg again.

Shit.